It is now April 2023. There was so much planned for this month. I had imagine that for my mom's 70th birthday to take her to Martinique, a trip I had promised her many years ago. But alas. She'll have to be there with me in spirit.
Yesterday (4/10/2023) I was in a funk...still am. Day started off weirdly. Stayed that way the whole day. There were two shootings in Louisville, KY--one a mass shooting done by another angry white guy. I guess when everyone's dead, we will finally get sensible gun laws. I digress. I also found out about instant dates. Which I think is an asshole trend. So at these dates, if one party doesn't like how the other party looks/acts/ect, they just ghost them...as in sees them, decide they won't to be on the date anymore, and leave. From a woman's perspective, it's a little dicey because some men can react violently if rejected so yea. There's been so much cruelty, hate, and pure evil it seems that's been overwhelming...I think I may have to take another social media break. Because I really don't understand wtf is going on.
The whole instant date trend just me feel very disappointed. Like why be cruel? It reminded me of Mother's Day 2021. Last one with mom. And how inconsiderate my father was. He could've taken my mom out for brunch or lunch...or something. Instead he gave her a list of things he wanted to have that Sunday for lunch. Didn't even get her flowers. Inconsiderate. Unkind. Thoughtless. A space of no love. I don't want that. I don't want that in any of my relationships--at least not the ones I hold dear to my heart.
