The process of this place

I wrote this a while ago...in July. I was capturing snippets of the changes going on in life. It is refreshing to see God more and more in my daily activities. This poem is a result of that reality. I am overwhelmed by His goodness and I savor His presence and His love., as I patiently wait for Adam.

I have finally made it
Finally reached a place of
contentment
I can spread my wings and
Fly to whatever destination my heart
Leans toward
I am no longer afraid
No longer worrying
That you are not
No longer afraid of being alone
Of waking up with no one beside me

In my heart you live on
A faceless man
A beautiful man
Someone I don't have to construct
Or reconstruct
Because I no longer wake up
Pining away for the shadows
That used to easily blind my heart
And fool my mind
Shadows because the real you
Loves Him more than
You love me
It's a necessity
A way to know you're my Adam

So this place where He's brought
me
Is where I'll be when you come
Should you come
The goal isn't so much
If you'll come
But that He will always provide
A place of singleness
of freedom
of peace
of abundance
Where my heart is refreshed and
renewed daily
Emptied of the years of being a
receptacle for not-enoughs, for-nows,
secondaries, and
never the first and only.

This place
is where you'll find me
Where I'll be growing in Him
And my heart will be in His heart
And only those who have access to that special place
will find me.

This place